Reflectionby
Matt Matlovich, Port Lambton, ON, Canada, Age 17
He
sat in the smooth plastic chair, his arms lying flat on the cold
steel armrests. He closed his eyes tightly, plunging himself into
a deep darkness. The last thing he wanted to do was relive his old
memories.
The mind is a great thing and,
sometimes, even a wonderful thing, bringing joy and elation. However,
at the same time it can be a horrible thing, bringing back the memories
of times we wish to forget—forever. Jonathon experienced something
horrible, and he would now find the true meaning of the phrase ‘the
past will come back to haunt you.’
* * * * *
The bright light seeped in through
his eyelids, blindingly white compared to the former darkness. However,
he would not open his eyes. He knew what was lying beyond them and
just was not ready for it. There is a time in every person’s
life when he must confront his greatest fears, for that is the only
way to overcome them. However, Jonathon knew that this was not his
time.
It began twenty-three years
ago, when he was only thirteen. Nevertheless, it still lingered
in his mind as if it were yesterday. He had horrible dreams about
it. Pain and agony continued to build in his heart and he wished
no one else in the world had to experience it.
That did not matter anymore;
no one cared what happened to him in the past, regardless of the
severity. Of course, he was empathized with for the first few years
with positive reinforcement from his teachers and peers. That did
not replace his parents; nothing could replace his loss.
Now, so many years later, he
was finally about to relive the past, to confront his deepest fear
and his darkest secret.
A door opened and closed to
the right of his head, followed by loud footsteps, the type that
only jet-black dress shoes create. He heard the shuffling of papers
as someone placed the large sheaf of paper on the table in front
of him. He was tempted to open his eyes, but did not. He remembered
what else hid within the room. It was something horrible.
“Mr. Huckson, how are
you today?” The calm voice of a gentleman broke the silence,
causing Jonathon’s body to make a quick jump.
“Uh, I…I…I’m
doing fine,” he stuttered, keeping his eyes tightly closed.
The light outside them, however, grew stronger.
“Really? You’re
not looking too good right now. You should open your eyes and look
at yourself,” the man said, taunting him.
“I’d prefer to close
my eyes for the moment, thank-you.” he responded, a smirk
spreading across his face.
“Well, then please explain
to me why you want to close your eyes, sir,” the man stated.
“I believe you know the
answer to that question, or else I wouldn’t be here right
now,” he remarked.
“Well, where are you?
You’ve had your eyes closed for the past couple of hours,”
the man remarked, lifting his voice.
“I don’t know exactly,
but I have a good idea. Do you want me to explain what I think?”
he asked, moving his head blindly in the direction of the man’s
voice.
“Sure, humour me,”
the man accepted. His footsteps were heard again, moving across
the hard tile floor of the room. There was the slight scuffle of
a chair leg across the smooth linoleum as the man sat down close
to Jonathon.
* * * * *
Jonathon opened his eyes, bringing
his large fists towards his face to ward off the sleepiness. His
covers lay in a heap on the floor, remnants of a night of turmoil
and restlessness. A smile spread across his face as he looked at
them. He was beginning to get used to the fact that he woke up to
a mess, no matter how hard he tried to keep his room clean.
The dreams were getting worse,
beginning to linger with him longer into the day. The image of his
dream crept into the back of his mind, staying vivid for hours.
Jonathon swung his legs out
of his bed and onto the cold hardwood floorboards. A sharp stinging
sensation shot up his legs. He quickly lifted his feet from the
floor and moved them into a worn out pair of slippers. The once-smooth
and straight fuzzy black hair that lined the outside was now tangled
and in patches from extensive over-use.
There were no windows in his
room, disallowing any light from entering this darkened place. He
did not like windows. They gave off a reflection.
Jonathon walked out of his room,
sliding across the floor. His arms hung loosely at his sides, swinging
in long, fluent motions, synchronized with each step. When he moved
into the kitchen, he heard the first bang. It came from the front
door of the house and sounded loud and sharp. He cocked his head
in that direction and held the fridge door open with one arm.
Another loud bang sounded from
the front door, shaking the walls. The hanging light fixture in
the kitchen rattled with the loud thump, sending small particles
of dust falling to the ground and glistened from the artificial
light. Again, this room had no windows, no possible surface which
would give off a reflection.
“This is the police, Mr.
Huckson! Open up!” A man shouted from outside the door, just
before another loud bang.
Jonathon stepped forward, allowing
the refrigerator door to close silently behind him. His housecoat
hung just above his ankles, fixed to his body by a single knot around
his waist. He was not ready to open the door; he did not want someone
to see him like this. However, it was the police. He had better
respond to them.
“Mr. Huckson, please open
up, or else we will break down your door!” The man shouted
again, this time anger building in his voice.
“Hold on! Hold on! I’m
a comin’,” Jonathon muttered, slowly making his way
over to the door. His eyes still felt heavy with sleep.
With one quick motion of his
wrist, Jonathon slid the chain from the lock on the door and twisted
the dead bolt. He quickly turned the knob, revealing himself to
the officers outside. There were about five or six officers and,
when he opened the door, one dressed in a brown trench coat reached
into his pocket and pulled out a badge.
“Detective Sadler. Are
you Jonathon Huckson?” the man asked. Jonathon gave a quick
nod in reply, before stepping aside and waving his hand into his
apartment, issuing the men inside.
The officers slowly filed into
the darkened home. The living room was poorly maintained and their
faces broadcasted their disgust.
“What can I do for you
today, sir?” he asked, beginning to wake up.
“Well, I’m leading
an investigation, one that you are very well aware of,” the
detective responded, keeping constant eye contact with Jonathon.
“No,” Jonathon replied
in a low voice, stepping back in disbelief, “you’re
not reopening it, are you?”
“I’m afraid we are.
With the new advancement in DNA technology, the superiors decided
to have us work on this case. After all, the killer was never found,”
Detective Sadler responded.
“Please, please don’t
talk about that right now,” Jonathon begged, remembering the
vivid dream he just experienced.
“I’m sorry, Jonathon,
but we must. We need your help in this case. You are the sole witness,”
the detective explained.
“Yes, but that was a long
time ago. People do tend to forget things,” he lied.
“We both damn well know
that you didn’t forget what happened. I’m going to have
my men search your apartment and see what we can find around here,”
Detective Sadler said, waving his hand around in a fluid circle,
signaling to the officers to search the entire apartment.
“You don’t understand,
detective,” Jonathon replied, trying to stop the officers
from searching his home. He knew that what they might find would
lead to more questions that were hurtful.
“I don’t understand
what, Jon?” Detective Sadler questioned, moving closer to
him.
Jonathon did not respond. He
just looked sternly at the detective, his lips unmoving. He knew
that whatever he said could be interpreted incorrectly. That was
something he did not want to risk happening.
“Hey, detective over here!”
A sensuous female voice sounded in the far corner of the home. Just
by the sound of the voice, Jonathon was able to picture where she
was—the bathroom.
Detective Sadler walked quickly
down the hall and out of Jonathon’s sight. This presented
Jonathon with a tempting question. Should he run, or should he stay?
He was not sure, but before long, the opportunity disappeared as
the detective returned. His hands were now gloved with off-white
latex and he was holding an open bag. Inside the clear bag were
numerous bottles, Jonathon’s medication.
“Jonathon, you seem to
have a lot of prescriptions,” Detective Sadler said, raising
his eyebrows at Jonathon, as if his very integrity was crushed by
this discovery.
“I told you that you wouldn’t
understand,” Jonathon replied through gritted teeth, his fists
clenched into tight balls, his knuckles turning white.
“Well, enlighten me then.
What exactly is benzodiazepine agonist, or coenzyme Q10, or risperidone,
or olanza—” Detective Sadler began lifting the bottles
out of the bag and reading the contents on the labels.
“Okay, okay, that’s
enough!” Jonathon shouted, covering his ears.
“They’re prescription
medications, used to treat insomnia, migraines, schizophrenia, and
depression,” a fidgety man replied in a matter-of-fact manner.
“See, figure he’d
come in handy eventually,” Detective Sadler said.
Jonathon did not reply, but
just stood there with his head bowed, ashamed.
“So, please explain to
me why you have all of these medications, exactly?” Detective
Sadler questioned.
“They’re to help
my…problems,” Jonathon replied, after a slight hesitation.
“What are these problems?”
The detective continued to interrogate.
“First, explain to me
why you have come here to ransack my house. Do you even have a search
warrant?” Jonathon argued, becoming defensive.
“Whoa, cool it! Yeah,
here it is,” Detective Sadler responded, reaching into the
front pocket of his coat and removing a thin white piece of paper.
Jonathon brought it closer to his face for inspection. “We’re
here to ask you some questions. We’ve searched your house
because we believe you are hiding something from us.”
“What exactly could I
hide? I’ve been fired from every job I’ve ever worked.
I’ve never had a girlfriend. I don’t have a single flaw
in my criminal record, and I was stuck with a foster family for
the last five years of my teens. They treated me like a f*****’
dog!” Jonathon flipped, his face now red with anger. Detective
Sadler backed off for a moment, but then realized he must continue
with his job.
“Have you actually stepped
back to look at yourself, Jonathon? Just look at you! You don’t
have a single window in this house! There are no mirrors, and no
steel surfaces. You can’t tell me that you’ve forgotten
about the murder of your parents! You still haven’t gotten
over it! You have to tell us what happened that night!” Detective
Sadler replied.
Jonathon did not reply. His
bottom lip began to quiver and tears began to collect in the corner
of his eyes. He knew that the topic would be brought up eventually.
What happened was something a person can never forget.
“Before you ask me any
more questions, I would like to talk to my lawyer,” Jonathon
said after he calmed himself down. He looked down at his hands,
and noticed they were beginning to shake. He quickly motioned for
the detective to hand over the bag with his medication. After removing
one of the bottles, he popped two pills into his mouth.
“Sure, but we would like
to take you down to the station,” Detective Sadler responded.
“Okay, but let me change,”
Jonathon responded, shoving past the detective and the other officers
and walking into his bedroom. He slammed the door with great force,
causing the light fixture in the kitchen to sway back and forth.
* * * * *
“And now we’re here,”
Jonathon replied, still holding his eyes tightly closed. He began
tapping his fingers on the table in front of him, a nervous habit
he adapted after the incident.
The door opened again, followed
by another set of footsteps crossing the tiled floor. These steps
were a little louder, followed by heavy breathing as if the simple
walk across the room was too much exercise for the man. Jonathon
almost cracked a smile, but knew that this man was his lawyer and
long time friend.
“Yes, and now your lawyer
is here too. Do you wish to talk now?” Detective Sadler questioned.
“Only if we get out of
this room. I know where we are. We’re in an interrogation
room. There’s a big mirror right in front of me. You should
know better than to put me in a room with a mirror,” Jonathon
said uneasily, his voice shaking just at the thought of a mirror.
“Well, I can see what
we can do. Hold on, I’ll be right back. You can talk with
your lawyer, but I must say that whatever you say will be recorded,”
Detective Sadler explained. Jonathon waited until he heard the detective’s
footsteps leave the room and the heavy metal door lock back into
place.
“What do they have against
me?” Jonathon questioned, wrinkling his forehead and turning
around to the place where he believed his lawyer sat.
“Well, that’s hard
to say. We know that you don’t like mirrors. We all know what
happened when you were just a teenager. But I was talking to one
of the officers out there. He’s a good buddy of mine, by the
way. We have drinks all the time. He said that the new detective,
this Sadler character, has been begging superiors to allow him to
reopen this case. He says that he believes you are holding something
back. And believe me, the discovery of all those prescription drugs
in your house hasn’t helped the case much,” his lawyer,
Fred Hunter, explained in his low, grumbling voice.
“So what do they want
to do? I don’t want to talk about what happened!” Jonathon
replied.
“Psychiatric treatment.
They want to hypnotize you. They believe this will be the only way
if their other plan doesn’t work,” Fred responded.
“What other plan?”
Jonathon asked, taken aback.
“They want you to open
your eyes,” Fred responded. His remark was followed by an
uneasy silence.
“What—what do you
mean! I’ve had my eyes open my whole life! You’re not
meaning in some crazy-assed philosophical way, are you?” Jonathon
questioned after regaining his composure.
“No, I mean right now,
Jonathon. You’re sitting there with your eyes wired shut.
They want you to open them and look around. Specifically, into a
mirror,” Fred explained.
“They want me to look
into a mirror? You know I won’t do that! I can’t handle
it!” Jonathon replied, infuriated.
“Listen, Jonathon, you’re
doing nothing to help your case right now. The best thing you can
do is go along with the detective’s orders. Do as he says,”
Fred said in a soothing tone.
“Please quit using ‘Jonathon’
every time you speak to me. I’m not a little boy and I don’t
need your comforting,” he snapped back.
“I’m not trying
to hurt you, Jona—. I’m trying to help you,” Fred
finished, after catching his own mistake.
“Well, you could help
me if you are able to convince them that I’m perfectly healthy
and that I don’t look in mirrors because it’s a phobia,
just like those people who are afraid of snakes or spiders or something
like that,” Jonathon explained, waving his hands madly around
in the air in an attempt to explain what he was thinking.
The door opened again, its hinges
creaking as they moved. No footsteps were heard inside, but Jonathon
could tell someone was standing there, watching him. He turned his
head in that direction, his eyelids still forcefully shut. There
was a nervous shuffle of footsteps, but then everything was quiet
again.
“Okay, Mr. Huckson, I
have a room booked for us. Please come with me,” the voice
of the detective sounded from the doorway.
Jonathon felt the fat fingers
of Fred clutch onto his shoulder. Fred swiftly pulled him up and
directed him toward the door. Jonathon followed unwillingly, hoping
he would be led into a dark room.
“Right this way, Jonathon,”
Detective Sadler said after a few seconds of silence. Jonathon was
forcibly held back for a moment as the detective opened the door
to a new room.
After walking into the room,
Fred forced Jonathon down into a big, comfortable chair. He was
ordered to put his legs apart and rest his arms on the respective
armrests. It was too late before he noticed that the detective was
busily adjusting leather straps around his ankles and wrists. He
was strapped down to the chair, but he continued to hold his eyes
firmly closed.
“What are you doing to
me?” Jonathon protested, writhing in his seat. However, Fred’s
grip on his arms was too strong and his attempt failed.
“It’s for your own
good. Now open your eyes,” Detective Sadler ordered.
“No, how do I know you
don’t have a mirror there?” Jonathon argued.
“You don’t. You
have to trust me. Just open your eyes,” Detective Sadler said,
remaining calm.
Jonathon finally gave in to
the detective’s command remembering Fred’s words of
wisdom. Very slightly, he peeked through his eyelids. He noticed
the detective hunched over him, the trench coat he was wearing earlier
still wrapped around his small body. When he realized that the room
was darkened and the walls the colour of a clouded sky, he opened
his eyes fully.
“Well, Jonathon, it seems
you have finally decided to join us,” Detective Sadler responded,
moving into the darkness and out of his field of view. “I’m
so sorry it had to come to this.”
The lights in the room were
turned on, causing a wave of blinding light to flood the room. Jonathon
blinked with the sudden change in the light of the room. However,
he was too late. Before he was able to blink, he noticed the mirror
in front of him.
* * * * *
Jonathon stood at the top of
the stairs, his house darkened. Thunder rolled outside and rain
pelted against the smooth glass window behind him. He held something
in his hand, but he could not make it out in the darkness.
He slowly descended the stairs,
moving downwards only one step at a time. His face was expressionless,
but he had butterflies in his stomach. Something did not seem right.
The stairs creaked underneath
his weight, but did not seem as loud as they should have been. Regardless,
he continued to walk down, his head held straight, his eyes staring
at the open space at the bottom of the steps. The object in his
hand seemed to glisten every time a lightening bolt struck the ground.
As he neared the bottom of the
steps, he noticed the flickering light of a candle. Shadows danced
along the wall, moving in a solemn procession. Sweat began to trickle
down his forehead.
When he reached the bottom,
he heard his mom’s laugh for the first time. He stopped for
a brief second, before turning around and facing the backs of his
parents. They sat together on the couch, staring at the fireplace
as the dry maple wood burned.
* * * * *
“Jonathon! Jonathon! Are
you alright?” Detective Sadler frantically tried to hold Jonathon
down as he quivered before him. The whites of his eyes were showing,
no longer hidden behind his eyelids. Fred went to get help.
“Jonathon!” Detective
Sadler yelled again. However, it was no use. Jonathon continued
his fit of convulsions, shaking madly in the chair, nearly ripping
himself free of the restraints.
* * * * *
Jonathon moved in behind his
parents. They were laughing at something, as if they had an inside
joke that only they could ever understand. Other than their laughter,
everything was silent. Jonathon looked up into the mirror above
the fireplace and looked into the faces of his parents.
He was invisible to them, masked
by a thick cloak of darkness. The light from the flames was unable
to touch him. Jonathon stepped forward, unwaveringly, beginning
to raise the metal object in his hand.
As he stepped into the glow
of the fire, he looked at himself in the mirror and nearly stepped
back in horror. He was only thirteen. His abundance of facial hair
ceased to exist. His features were still soft and full of innocence.
His light blue eyes shifted to the object in his hand: a butcher
knife.
When he returned his eyes to
the mirror hanging above the fireplace, he began to move forward.
His parents were still in a daze, laughing giddily. That could be,
perhaps, from the drug he had placed in their drinks before supper.
He was still invisible to them.
* * * * *
A crowd gathered around Jonathon
as he sat in his chair, his convulsions beginning to slow down.
His body no longer slithered in the chair, but instead seemed to
vibrate. Detective Sadler stepped back, hiding in the shadows of
the people. He should have known what would happen when Jonathon
was confronted by his worst fear. He should have known that this
could have happened.
* * * * *
The first time he brought the
knife down he caught his mother in the nape of the neck. She let
out a deep sigh, but continued as if nothing happened. Blood began
to gush from the wound at the back of her neck. He brought the knife
up again, this time bringing it down into his father, pushing it
halfway through his neck.
His father’s body began
to shake, but Jonathon did not even flinch. His eyes were glued
to the mirror. For the next few minutes, he continued to bring the
knife into the bodies of his parents until he knew they were dead.
He dropped the knife and went back up the stairs.
* * * * *
“Jonathon?” Detective
Sadler questioned, when he noticed a flutter in his eyes.
Jonathon stirred in his seat
a little, opening his eyes. His body was sore. Red marks lined his
wrists and knees. Small droplets of blood clung to the hair on his
arms. After a few moments, he realized he was back in the police
station, sitting in the chair. His face turned ghostly white.
“Jonathon, are you alright?”
Fred questioned, finding it peculiar that Jonathon was now able
to look at himself in the mirror.
“I killed them,”
he responded in a blank tone. The crowd gasped.
“What, Jonathon? You killed
who?” Detective Sadler questioned.
“I killed my parents,”
he responded, sitting back in his chair. For the first time in twenty-three
years, he was able to look at himself in the mirror, and he saw
his reflection.
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